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Finding my role in my team in my new team



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Management Teams. Why They Succeed or Fail. Second Edition. R. Meredith Belbin
R. M. Belbin
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This essay is a way to help to find my place in the team. My intention is to get a clearer picture of who I am at this moment, what are my strengths and weaknesses and how can I contribute to my team with my skills. As structure in the beginning, I gather my experiences from previous teams, then I will use two methods: to define my personality (Meyers-Briggs Type indicator) and to define my role in teamwork (Belbin team role test). In the end I find conclusion and dive deeper along the theories and findings. In the end I hopefully find a clearer path for the next semester.

Previous experiences

It would be hard to count how many times was I engaged in teamwork during my life. If I count the bigger/longer ones, with work included from my “adult” life, the picture is clearer. I have been engaged in Erasmus camp creations; I was a team leader and treasury of my faculty during university years; I have been in a team intended to preserve and educate about natural wetlands; and however, I was engaged multiple times in work with different group of people, just once I have experienced work-related teamwork yet. And now, in TAMK Proakatemia – but this time it is not count.

The pattern is similar, but the result sometimes varies: First I get extremely enthusiast, curious and ideational. I am full of ideas, sparks, power, and I would like to change the world for good. Then I get engaged: I take responsibility, it seems I motivate people around me, I dive deeper into the topic, still with the intention of doing things at least good, but most likely better than before. Here comes the first brake: I realize the processes are slower than I expect; I am not able to change core parts even if they are dysfunctional; and/or the people around me shows less will to work on things than I have expected – mostly based on their behavior and feeling what was driven from my enthusiasm. All cases lead me to lose energy, and not every time was I able to manage emotions and was not able to keep my work steady. This effects the team, however, a leader above me was yet always able to channel my emotions, make me feel understood, help me to calm down but not loose completely interest and when I was continuing my work, I was able to still reach success (and change/make a mark in a cooperative ways). In cases when I was in the leader role two things happened: I have faced with a wall and could not get out of the situation and rethink my possibilities, what kept me going to the same direction, resulting me finishing the job but burning out; and effecting my whole team in a very same way: less listening, less understanding and less enthusiasm from my direction resulted discouraged, slow working, demotivated group of people with a great resistance related to the decisions what a team was making together (but honestly, I was pushing the ideas true, and even they were useful and later on wanted, the way how they came into life was a suffer for all parts). I have a third case, with a flatter structure, what was a lighter experience, with less big ideas and slower work together, and however it was intense no-one burned themselves and the memory also positive for all of us.

The learnings from my experiences, in short:

  • I am getting enthusiastic easily, I see ideas, possibilities and I get engaged easily.
  • I find partners (re)acting in a similar frequency and answering my enthusiasm and vision.
  • I take responsibility. I am willing to put energy to the project and I find ways to create project from the ideas.
  • I face with wing-cutting information/situations where either I am able or I am not able to rethink, slower the phase without stopping completely, keep cheerful attitude and I need support to re-design the original plans.
  • The last steps are vary depends on was I able to make the change in myself: 1, I quit; 2, I push forward and beat my will over the obstacles – obviously when it is done I quit because I am burned; 3, I am facing with downhill and discourage and I need to withdraw and ask trustworthy (and accepted!) help; 4, or I was not involved so much emotionally and I have less responsibility, as the uphill is smoother the downhill is smoother as well.

The key learnings personally are less emotional involvement; less expectation and “world saving” attitude; I shall not take it as serious to forget myself in the game completely; and do not forget the cooperation part – even if it is my idea and my goal it shall be ours if we are working together. And if not than the problem is the goal itself, so rethinking is ok.

The interesting part is that when I have learned about my Belbin role and personality type those things made sense how could happen.

Personality type

PICTURE 1: ENFJ (source: https://www.16personalities.com/profile)

PICTURE 1: ENFJ (source: https://www.16personalities.com/profile)

My first not here is that this test result is recent and in a previous semester my result was slightly different: I was ended up with a result of ENFP-A, what is a campaigner personality, the difference was on the judging-prospecting scale, slightly on the prospecting side. The second note is that I was wishing to change this in myself a bit towards a bit more judging, feeling the protagonist already in me. In the end I feel both characters close to me and mostly matching.

A campaigner (Myers-Briggs, ENFP)

Magic behind the curtains interests me, I feel creative and highly interested towards human relationships and behaviour.

I am not short of enthusiasm, and it is infectious. It is important for me to have good time and enjoy what we are doing here.

Strengths:

  • curious
  • perceptive
  • enthusiastic
  • excellent communicator
  • easy going
  • good-natured and positive

Weaknesses

  • people-pleasing
  • unfocused
  • disorganized
  • overly accommodating
  • overly optimistic
  • restless

As all personalities I do also have strengths and weaknesses and most of the campaigner is true for me. The interesting thing is that even before the result of the previous test I have noticed most of the weaknesses and I am working on the corrections of people-pleasing and overly accommodating attitude, I have learned to be organized – maybe sometimes overly organized.

A career path however is interesting and really telling of this type: “Maybe I could…fly helicopters and be an oceanographer who writes songs and cooks?” (16 personality type, ENFP career path). I do feel that there is too much on my plate and I am interested by everything. And a weak point is defocus and loosing interest when I am coming off from the enthusiasm hill.

I feel I am keeping more or less one direction with my career path: I have found limitless motivation in personal pain, I have found meaningfulness in helping others (and helping myself), and I have found a big enough focus to direct most of my interest towards one topic: women health. Now I just need to describe smaller steps to reach the big dreams and maintain my enthusiasm during challenging periods as a super-tool to motivate myself and make myself believe in my goals.

A protagonist (Myers-Briggs, ENFJ)

I feel there is a need for bigger and deeper meaning, and I feel I need to speak up for justice. I talk the talk and walk the walk; I believe what I do, and I must do what I believe in. And I enjoy motivating people for doing good. And despite I consider myself a realistic-pessimistic, it seems I act like there is a brighter future – it is hard to put down the “change the world for good” attitude.

Strengths

  • receptive
  • reliable
  • passionate
  • altruistic
  • charismatic

Weaknesses

  • unrealistic
  • overly idealistic
  • condescending
  • intense
  • overly empathetic

As with almost all the strengths and weaknesses of the Campaigner, I feel hit by the Protagonists. The interesting part is that I feel myself smaller than acknowledging my altruism but more my charism, where I feel I can grow with unlocking skills to move people along myself. The weakness part here as well I am already aware of and trying to accept I cannot save or help everyone; others are not necessarily sharing my principle; I shall not “enlighten” everyone all the time; I shall not push neither others nor myself; and I need to come first otherwise I cannot help anyone else. But still a good reminder to have a list like this, and personally it feels almost magical facing with a method what exactly tells those points.

When I look at the career path of a protagonist I feel again identified. For me it is important to do something where I feel myself useful in a way of helping others and having personal connections. I can enjoy work in many places where I feel this and I am happy I have chosen a path, and I have courage for my big ambitions, where I have channeled all my interest towards one higher goal. this makes me stay on track, but meanwhile on my path I feel important to work with the protagonist attitude to improve our life – or I just cannot do otherwise. There are two sentences what makes me feel closer to identify a team role: “ENFJs feel fulfilled and energized by work that allows them to step back and reflect on the big picture. For these types, leaving a positive legacy is a key priority.” (16 personalities, ENFJ Career path).

An ENFJ is a reliable subordinate who takes sometimes more task than he/she can happily handle – and finishes it. Learning how to say no in cases are useful. As a college this personality type is a team-player and going for success together in a team. However, the tendency of taking charge can lead into situation where the others feel bothered. ENFJ feel calls toward leadership, and I cannot deny this one being on Leadership studies. Shine with the team and make everyone inspired is a dream of mine – even I recognize a fear in me going towards leadership.

I do not like to make mistakes – indeed, who likes? But I know I hold back because of fear of making mistakes. When I face with this one, I feel I must fight with it. But I have a mind full of questions how to do it and what to do. And do I want to distract my big plan and delay a life-business creation for learning it? Well, when if not during my studies? And facing with the fear of I don’t know how to do I must laugh on myself because of my Belbin result.

Belbin Team Role

PICTURE 2: Personal Belbin results (source: Belbin Team role report Szonja Pomazi 2023.11.14.)

PICTURE 2: Personal Belbin results (source: Belbin Team role report Szonja Pomazi 2023.12.)

What I am strongly

As a plant I live in a world of ideas. I like to solve complex problems and think of solutions. Beside that I like to organize structures and if my categories are not describing fully the situation I easily re-categorize. I bring always new ideas, and this makes me enthusiast, but here lies the weakness of the plant as well: if the surrounding does not support my idea I can lose interest. I shall learn how to handle emotionally if not all my ideas are bought and be able to discard them. Being a plant, I shall also consider that I am least a monitor evaluator, so I am not just ideally blind towards my own ideas but general this is a weak part.

As a team worker my overall operating style is a constructive team player. I work best with those who supports logical thinking, and I can find hard to work with strong personalities.

As a resource investigator I find easy to go outside from the team and make connections. I do enjoy this type of work when I am socially charged and when I have a clear vision of what I am doing and who I am in the team.

What I am least is

As I am a least good as monitor evaluator, I shall know that I am not the best for making decisions. I can, but I know from myself I can be shallow if not engaged in fully enthusiasm and also, if I am fully on fire and passionate. Also, I tend to be too much emotionally involved as well to be a bit fickle. Combining this with being a plant is interesting.

Suggested work styles based on the Belbin test.

Using Plant and Team Worker I am suitable for helping others with ideas. I can enjoy a role where I can focus on problem solving, ideating, and helping others with their own path, ideas, and projects. I would do feel myself useful, calm, and nourishing.

Using Plant and Resource Investigator I can confidentially imagine myself in innovation. It would charge me to work in a surrounding where I can ideate and bring new perspectives in, where I can advocate an entirely new approach and work out solution.

As a Plant and Co-Ordinator, I would relish in an environment where I would promote new approaches meanwhile taking responsibility. I can use my plant as a support to navigate my department or team true challenges and as a Co-Ordinator I can see how those ideas come true the skillset of my team.

As a Team Worker and Resource Investigator I am a great in a communicator role. Building better communication inside of the team as well with the outside from the team can bring value as well, I feel I would enjoy this role.

Opening possibilities what can I be in the team is interesting. As we have just a few official team roles (like Team leader and business leader) the possibilities obviously have felt limited. even if in the current team we might not need delegated person for outside communication or innovation, I think knowing our skills, our confident roles how we can easily contribute to our team meanwhile we enjoy the work because we flourish is a knowledge what we can convert even into hard currency. Looking at my skillset in Belbin I feel I have found clearer ways to contribute.

What do I learn from this essay?

I feel one of my biggest learning is how to not lose motivation if I feel my wings are cut by the possibilities, if my surrounding is not interested my never-ending idea flow or if one of my favorite ideas are discarded.

I also find that maybe I am too fast and overly enthusiastic, and this also blinds my sensitivity for the outer world. This creates dissonance between me and my working surrounding, creates the feeling I am not heard and appreciated, meanwhile I was also not phasing my energy well. What to do then?

I can slow down for the team. We are different and we have different phase, different cycle, and different life situations. If I learn more how to listen to people fully and able to slow down inside but maintain my inner fire of enthusiasm, I can support my team better as a team player and I can help them better as a protagonist. What strengthen me with good feeling as well as feeling myself useful and helpful without burning out or get demotivated.

I have a big power of fire as enthusiasm. I am easily turning it on – or actually it is more likely to turned on from things than from conscious decision -, and I can spread the motivation. But in the protagonist description there was a differentiation between motivate and inspire people, and inspiration is more important for me – says the description and me myself as well. To not just motivate but inspire people I think I must slow down a bit, to be calmer and more listening to find and help others to find the connection between the power of enthusiasm and their reason to do things. I mean that here if I put just a little fire under the right place it will burn with great fire; however, if I try to put with enormous effort fire under wet wood if will just smoke but not burn. And in the end, I lose energy, I burn out and lose interest, gathering the experience my effort is not appreciated. Finding right place, time, and circumstances to contribute my effort and enthusiasm is key.

Meanwhile during writing this paragraph I have tapped into my inner insecurity as I feel I am a bit depending on the answers from outside if I must share my enthusiasm and I have to get positive answers for it. It means I need the support from outside, but what if I strengthen myself inside? It would mean multiple things:

  • I am fine inside, and I can listen the opinion of the outside but it would not hit me emotionally if for example someone don’t like my idea.
  • I can concentrate more on others than on myself, meaning that in my inner side is strong I do not need to take care as much of it. I can listen others and understand their position and opinion better, without taking it personally.
  • I would not need to burn fast in ideas and enthusiasm, ideally, I could support slower and steadier burning easier.
  • With better a clearer understanding of the outer world I could phase my ideas and energy in a way it is not in dissonancy with my team, so when we work together, I could be more effective with where and how to put my energy.

As this last part was the hardest to focus on and write about, I feel this brings the most core and personal learning for me. Also, the most intangible how to change it. Maybe if I keep it in mind meanwhile acting and give space and time for me to explore and trial and error, I will be better in the end of my studies than now.

As a closure I have found reasons to go for being a leader of my team.

 

 

Resources:

Myers-Briggs Type Indicator ENFP (https://www.16personalities.com/enfp-personality), and ENFJ (https://www.16personalities.com/enfj-personality). Checked on: 01.04.2024.

Belbin® Individual report for Szonja Pomazi, 11.14.2023.

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Human on Earth. Originally a Hungarian anthropologist, living in Finland and studying business & entrepreneurship and team leadership. Interested in psychology, human behavior, nature and health in all levels.

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